The Hardest Part

The hardest part of all this for me is watching this strong woman slowly get beat down. My mom when I was a kid scared the crap out of me. She's strong willed, stubborn, creative, hard worker, funny, and so much more. But don't cross her, lol. She loves her girls to death and would do anything for us. Which, back then was not always so easy to see.

 You will have only one true mother. I understand this. That bond and relationship is a strong one. Whether you think you have a good or bad one... She's still yours and she is doing her best. The threat of losing mine killed me! It's a loss I can imagine is like no other and one I'm never going to be ready for. 

Recently my mom had a surgery. Everything went well and she is home now. But today she made me promise not to let her go through that again. How can I not support something that will save her, yet how can I not respect her wishes. After, I threw a fit telling her I would not lose her, I came to my senses. I gave her what she needed... My promise to support her NO when she needed me to! It's hard. I depended on her for everything and now she depends on us. Roles reverse! Don't get me wrong, I want to be here for her. However, realizing your super mom is only human and fragile can be life altering. But no matter what I love and respect her. I'll support her when she needs me to make her NO clear and I'll encourage her when that's needed. Overall, I'm just thankful I still have her. I want to keep her for a while longer. So if your reading this! Please pray! Or send your positive vibes this way.

Mom is on left, lady on right is one of her besties! Photo taken 3 years ago. I love this pic!